Thursday evening:
The light
starts to fade and there are many hours and days of bitter anguish before the
breaking of a new Sunday morning. He leave his disciples a stone throw away;
weary, confused, pondering over a new meal fresh eaten, perhaps leading to some
cataclysmic exodus?
So a
conversation starts never before encountered in the long history of the triune
Godhead between father and son. For the first time divine wills are not
completely entwined as one. A human mind and will which screams out from every
anguished brain cell against the divine plan of deepest human torture and
separation from the triune God.
Psalm
143 Listen, Abba,
Lord as I pray!
You are faithful and honest
and will answer my prayer.
2 I am your servant...
.
3 My enemies are chasing me,
crushing me in the ground.
I am in total darkness,
like someone long dead.
4 I have given up all hope,
and I feel numb all over.
You are faithful and honest
and will answer my prayer.
2 I am your servant...
.
3 My enemies are chasing me,
crushing me in the ground.
I am in total darkness,
like someone long dead.
4 I have given up all hope,
and I feel numb all over.
5 I remember to think
about
the many things
you did
in years gone by.
6 Then I lift my hands in prayer,
because my soul is a desert,
thirsty for water from you.
the many things
you did
in years gone by.
6 Then I lift my hands in prayer,
because my soul is a desert,
thirsty for water from you.
7 Please hurry, Abba
Lord,
and answer my prayer.
I feel hopeless.
Don’t turn away
and leave me here to die.
8 Each morning let me learn
more about your love
because I trust you.
I come to you in prayer,
asking for your guidance.
and answer my prayer.
I feel hopeless.
Don’t turn away
and leave me here to die.
8 Each morning let me learn
more about your love
because I trust you.
I come to you in prayer,
asking for your guidance.
9 Please rescue me
from my enemies, Abba, Lord!
I come to you for safety.
10 You are my God. Show me
what you want me to do,
and let your gentle Spirit
lead me in the right path.
from my enemies, Abba, Lord!
I come to you for safety.
10 You are my God. Show me
what you want me to do,
and let your gentle Spirit
lead me in the right path.
11 Be true to our name,
Abba, Lord,
and keep my life safe.
Use your saving power
to protect me from trouble.
12 I am your servant.
Show how much you love me
by destroying my enemies.
and keep my life safe.
Use your saving power
to protect me from trouble.
12 I am your servant.
Show how much you love me
by destroying my enemies.
( modified from CEV )
Then
the answer:
"My
Dearest Son, of course I will answer your prayer
But not after your human will but after our
divine will.
You
must walk through the darkest valley of death and be engulfed in it,
You will face death just as every other child
of Adam. You will scream with deepest agony;
Finally killing death and bringing in a newly healed
universe.
Yes
we will be separated for a period, and that which can never be separated will
be separated
We
will each experience our darkest night of the soul, in the most painful of
separations.
As
we re-unite in joyful resurrection we will bring with us fallen Adam reuniting our
whole human family
Long
separated by rebellion and pride, into our new recreated universe.
Rise
up my son and return to your disciples now sleeping in their human grief and
sorrow."
So
the tears and blood soaked drops of sweat fall to the ground and blesses that
which was cursed by the start of human rebellion in far off Eden
As
all of human rebellion finally resolves and the second Adam refuses to taste
the Apple of ultimate temptation.
Human
will again becomes exactly aligned and matched with the divine will and plan.
And
now the hour has come, the divine warrior arises to win the final battle.
Lord teach me to pray
